1 00:01:09,450 --> 00:01:13,970 We've talked a lot so far about the nature of good storytelling. 2 00:01:14,630 --> 00:01:20,030 But judging from your stories, it seems like a lot of you are just flapping in 3 00:01:20,030 --> 00:01:21,030 the wind. 4 00:01:21,710 --> 00:01:24,290 Without a voice, an instrument. 5 00:01:25,910 --> 00:01:27,150 So how do we change that? 6 00:01:28,550 --> 00:01:30,630 I know I respond to something more real. 7 00:01:31,350 --> 00:01:33,890 Maybe something like a spontaneous overflow of emotion. 8 00:01:35,090 --> 00:01:36,630 Spoken like a true romantic? 9 00:01:37,190 --> 00:01:38,350 Give me too much credit. 10 00:01:38,880 --> 00:01:41,520 No, if you're writing emotionally, you're writing selfishly. 11 00:01:41,920 --> 00:01:43,440 You're not connecting with your audience. 12 00:01:44,060 --> 00:01:48,100 So readers don't connect to a story with soul. 13 00:01:50,540 --> 00:01:56,100 Is it a well-outlined plot you most respond to or emotion that reflects your 14 00:01:56,100 --> 00:01:57,740 own human experience? 15 00:01:59,900 --> 00:02:02,020 What matters is where it comes from. 16 00:02:03,420 --> 00:02:04,680 It comes from you. 17 00:02:06,180 --> 00:02:07,180 That's right. 18 00:02:08,750 --> 00:02:15,170 That is right. And in that way, the best moments of writing are instinctive, 19 00:02:15,170 --> 00:02:21,570 showing who we are and what it is we're processing from a place each 20 00:02:21,570 --> 00:02:22,970 our own. 21 00:02:24,850 --> 00:02:25,930 You up for sharing? 22 00:03:08,080 --> 00:03:13,480 The church was small but strong, resting along the low country banks where my 23 00:03:13,480 --> 00:03:14,480 father once preached. 24 00:03:15,100 --> 00:03:18,840 On summer mornings, we'd have Sunday school alongside the cooling creeks, 25 00:03:18,920 --> 00:03:22,660 listening to Bible stories and singing about this little lie to mine. 26 00:03:23,840 --> 00:03:29,340 I'd sometimes sneak away, braving the golden green marsh grass up to my neck, 27 00:03:29,780 --> 00:03:35,120 soft sun peeking through patches of Spanish moss, heat and light upon my 28 00:03:35,120 --> 00:03:36,120 face. 29 00:03:38,960 --> 00:03:40,340 what I imagine God felt like. 30 00:03:43,940 --> 00:03:50,280 But as the tides moved out, that sun shrunk away on 31 00:03:50,280 --> 00:03:54,620 the journey to single day. 32 00:04:07,850 --> 00:04:12,870 If I go up there now, baby, like a dog in heat. 33 00:05:45,130 --> 00:05:48,010 Hey, you boys want some of this while I got it out? Why don't you shut the hell 34 00:05:48,010 --> 00:05:51,710 up? You ready? 35 00:05:52,730 --> 00:05:53,870 Keep your panties on. 36 00:05:56,330 --> 00:05:57,330 Hey. 37 00:05:58,330 --> 00:05:59,330 Pick you up at 10? 38 00:06:00,870 --> 00:06:01,870 Yeah. 39 00:06:03,990 --> 00:06:05,270 You'll be there, right? 40 00:06:06,250 --> 00:06:07,290 Yeah. Huh? Yeah? 41 00:06:07,630 --> 00:06:08,630 Because we need you. 42 00:06:14,340 --> 00:06:15,340 Ten. 43 00:06:16,480 --> 00:06:21,440 We'd been friends since seventh grade, when my mom returned us to these 44 00:06:21,440 --> 00:06:22,640 waterways with her family. 45 00:06:23,940 --> 00:06:27,400 I got caught crying in a hallway and chased the other kids away as they 46 00:06:27,400 --> 00:06:28,400 laughed. 47 00:06:29,320 --> 00:06:34,200 A warrior, suddenly at my side. 48 00:06:37,960 --> 00:06:42,680 Most of the time I shut myself off, drifting back into a dark cloud. 49 00:06:44,780 --> 00:06:45,780 Slow fall. 50 00:06:47,360 --> 00:06:48,600 They called it depression. 51 00:06:50,300 --> 00:06:52,640 Then asked if I was having thoughts about suicide. 52 00:06:54,860 --> 00:06:55,860 I lied. 53 00:06:56,840 --> 00:06:57,840 Said no. 54 00:07:06,560 --> 00:07:07,560 Where you been? 55 00:07:15,690 --> 00:07:16,690 Allison called. 56 00:07:19,510 --> 00:07:20,930 They said you should be there by eight. 57 00:07:31,850 --> 00:07:33,050 The pain is a curse. 58 00:07:34,830 --> 00:07:36,330 Hand it down for my father. 59 00:07:37,550 --> 00:07:41,870 Let us remember, as the bread nourishes our bodies and our minds, and let it 60 00:07:41,870 --> 00:07:43,930 nourish your soul and your faith. 61 00:07:48,110 --> 00:07:50,110 Looking for something he'd never find. 62 00:08:01,310 --> 00:08:04,250 But at times the pain explodes out of my mind and hand. 63 00:08:06,250 --> 00:08:07,490 A sweet relief. 64 00:08:21,840 --> 00:08:27,400 Nothing. I bet you $1.99 you ain't got off that damn couch all day. 65 00:08:33,080 --> 00:08:33,559 What 66 00:08:33,559 --> 00:08:49,520 are 67 00:08:49,520 --> 00:08:50,119 you doing? 68 00:08:50,120 --> 00:08:51,730 Nothing. What did you take? 69 00:08:51,990 --> 00:08:52,990 Dick, get back! 70 00:08:54,790 --> 00:08:56,590 I'm gonna kick your ass, Howard! 71 00:08:57,630 --> 00:09:00,450 Right. You ain't gonna do shit. 72 00:09:22,570 --> 00:09:24,350 Y'all know Joseph, Charlie's little brother. 73 00:09:24,810 --> 00:09:25,810 What's up? 74 00:09:27,010 --> 00:09:28,530 Come to drink all our beer and split? 75 00:09:33,410 --> 00:09:35,330 Where's Charlie? 76 00:09:36,590 --> 00:09:37,590 He's in the study. 77 00:09:37,850 --> 00:09:38,910 Go find him. 78 00:09:39,130 --> 00:09:40,210 He's been looking for you. 79 00:09:46,350 --> 00:09:47,430 Quite the charmer. 80 00:09:48,030 --> 00:09:49,030 Gonna be. 81 00:10:01,900 --> 00:10:03,360 It means how you got an invite to my party. 82 00:10:05,660 --> 00:10:06,660 Joseph. 83 00:10:07,700 --> 00:10:10,720 What are you doing, buddy? 84 00:10:11,620 --> 00:10:13,420 I'm all right. 85 00:10:15,060 --> 00:10:16,060 Staying in trouble? 86 00:10:18,300 --> 00:10:19,300 Yeah. 87 00:10:19,940 --> 00:10:20,940 Bullshit. 88 00:10:21,300 --> 00:10:23,740 Hey, let me go say hey to some people. I'll catch up with you in a second, 89 00:10:23,780 --> 00:10:25,120 okay? All right, buddy. 90 00:10:28,880 --> 00:10:29,880 Where's my wife? 91 00:10:32,140 --> 00:10:37,000 Charlie was my half-brother, abandoned by my father when he was ten. 92 00:10:38,780 --> 00:10:44,180 He made good by being himself, a wide space between him and me. 93 00:11:20,270 --> 00:11:21,950 That's true. It's not bad. 94 00:11:23,130 --> 00:11:24,830 You just seem to have all the answers, don't you? 95 00:11:25,210 --> 00:11:29,030 I'm not saying I have all the answers, but we've all had those moments that 96 00:11:29,030 --> 00:11:33,570 feel right, where we feel like we're at our best, where we're not bogged down 97 00:11:33,570 --> 00:11:39,990 with self-doubt or fear, you know, where we trust in the world around us. Which 98 00:11:39,990 --> 00:11:40,709 is what? 99 00:11:40,710 --> 00:11:41,710 Faith. 100 00:11:42,390 --> 00:11:45,370 Striving for some sense of hope, of peace. 101 00:11:46,030 --> 00:11:49,070 The eagle soaring through the air achieves because of three things. 102 00:11:49,660 --> 00:11:52,800 His wing, the wind, and his faith in both. 103 00:11:54,740 --> 00:12:00,040 Our role is to accept that who we are is absolutely integral to that and to stop 104 00:12:00,040 --> 00:12:04,520 fighting against the concept of our value and to recognize that the world 105 00:12:04,520 --> 00:12:07,020 cannot be what it's determined to be without us as we are. 106 00:12:08,300 --> 00:12:09,300 What do you think, Joe? 107 00:12:10,060 --> 00:12:12,280 I like it. 108 00:12:13,240 --> 00:12:14,240 See there? 109 00:12:14,600 --> 00:12:16,880 There you go. Youth of America likes it. 110 00:12:35,320 --> 00:12:36,320 Yeah. 111 00:12:38,440 --> 00:12:40,360 What the hell are you doing in here? 112 00:12:41,480 --> 00:12:42,480 Nothing. 113 00:12:51,980 --> 00:12:53,220 Cars in my way. 114 00:13:06,560 --> 00:13:12,720 You can best get to cleaning this place out like I keep telling you. Whatever. 115 00:13:14,740 --> 00:13:16,060 The hell did you say? 116 00:13:18,160 --> 00:13:19,760 Live here for free? 117 00:13:20,480 --> 00:13:23,840 Barely got out of high school. Hey, you don't even have a goddamn job. 118 00:13:25,660 --> 00:13:28,180 You starting to amount to jack shit, you know that? 119 00:13:33,640 --> 00:13:34,800 You always give me such a hard time. 120 00:13:38,520 --> 00:13:40,480 You don't know what a hard time is. 121 00:14:06,260 --> 00:14:07,500 How is your mom doing? 122 00:14:10,400 --> 00:14:11,400 She's okay. 123 00:14:11,780 --> 00:14:12,780 Good. 124 00:14:13,880 --> 00:14:14,960 Do you want some of this? 125 00:14:16,640 --> 00:14:17,640 Yeah, sure. 126 00:14:18,940 --> 00:14:22,800 So, are you still thinking about school? 127 00:14:26,360 --> 00:14:28,020 You said I was thinking about school. 128 00:14:29,820 --> 00:14:33,000 Charlie, you should, you know. 129 00:14:34,600 --> 00:14:35,600 You did well. 130 00:15:08,300 --> 00:15:12,100 You know I'm going back where I belong. 131 00:15:12,740 --> 00:15:15,240 I said I'm going back. 132 00:15:16,960 --> 00:15:21,200 I'm going back where I belong. 133 00:15:27,540 --> 00:15:32,720 I was alone, but I would on occasion take company in other folks. 134 00:15:35,790 --> 00:15:37,950 Not through easy conversation or eye contact. 135 00:15:39,850 --> 00:15:41,590 That I make up stories about them. 136 00:15:42,810 --> 00:15:43,970 Where they came from. 137 00:15:45,690 --> 00:15:47,410 Based on a sideways glance. 138 00:15:49,170 --> 00:15:50,170 Or that night. 139 00:15:51,090 --> 00:15:52,090 A little more. 140 00:16:12,520 --> 00:16:13,520 How's it going? 141 00:16:16,660 --> 00:16:17,660 Alright. 142 00:16:21,260 --> 00:16:22,260 You from around here? 143 00:16:26,840 --> 00:16:27,840 Yeah. 144 00:16:29,580 --> 00:16:30,580 You? 145 00:16:32,120 --> 00:16:33,120 Not far. 146 00:16:47,560 --> 00:16:48,560 You and Daddy a preacher? 147 00:16:51,980 --> 00:16:52,980 Yeah. 148 00:16:56,020 --> 00:16:57,020 Yeah. 149 00:16:57,840 --> 00:16:59,100 You got the head of a preacher. 150 00:17:01,200 --> 00:17:02,380 The way it curves wide. 151 00:17:21,290 --> 00:17:22,290 He left his mark on you. 152 00:17:24,910 --> 00:17:26,150 The eye of God. 153 00:17:27,490 --> 00:17:28,490 There. 154 00:17:32,590 --> 00:17:33,710 Use that sight. 155 00:17:36,850 --> 00:17:37,850 You'll find your way. 156 00:18:02,120 --> 00:18:03,120 Best get to it. 157 00:18:07,740 --> 00:18:09,360 I saw something there. 158 00:18:11,340 --> 00:18:12,340 A light. 159 00:18:15,280 --> 00:18:17,620 An idea that would later live and breathe. 160 00:18:20,960 --> 00:18:22,980 Forming like the crest of a breaking wave. 161 00:18:25,640 --> 00:18:27,660 A reflection of what floats inside. 162 00:18:37,750 --> 00:18:38,750 Finally. 163 00:18:53,770 --> 00:18:54,830 Easy there, tiger. 164 00:18:58,650 --> 00:19:02,130 We gotta get ready soon. 165 00:19:04,510 --> 00:19:05,610 What are we gonna do? 166 00:19:07,590 --> 00:19:08,590 Pay attention. 167 00:19:09,490 --> 00:19:10,570 I won't get paid. 168 00:19:14,310 --> 00:19:16,730 You know my cousin down in Oka Coke? 169 00:19:17,890 --> 00:19:22,090 Yeah, he's lousy when it comes to drinking, but he sniffs out the hot 170 00:19:22,090 --> 00:19:23,090 spot. 171 00:19:28,910 --> 00:19:33,630 Told him about a little juke joint around the island he's been frequenting. 172 00:19:34,860 --> 00:19:38,600 And what happened one night when they was all drunk as hell. 173 00:19:46,600 --> 00:19:50,580 And some serious movement showed up for the plan. 174 00:20:34,909 --> 00:20:38,110 These three dudes come in with shotguns, holding the place up. 175 00:20:38,930 --> 00:20:41,410 One took on cash box, get it all emptied out. 176 00:20:41,650 --> 00:20:44,910 The other two watch the crowd making sure some hillbilly don't play 177 00:20:44,910 --> 00:20:45,910 vigilante. 178 00:20:47,250 --> 00:20:49,830 Anything come up, they all get the hell out. 179 00:20:52,290 --> 00:20:55,770 And by the time anyone was sober enough to realize what the hell was happening, 180 00:20:56,030 --> 00:20:57,870 they was long gone. 181 00:21:00,080 --> 00:21:02,140 Turns out they've been hitting joints all over the coast. 182 00:21:03,180 --> 00:21:06,540 Stealing drunk folks money while they were too drunk to do anything about it. 183 00:21:07,580 --> 00:21:09,840 And those folks sure as hell won't call in a pokey. 184 00:21:10,460 --> 00:21:14,680 Hell, they bust up the stills and shut her down in two shakes. Wouldn't give a 185 00:21:14,680 --> 00:21:15,700 rat's ass past that. 186 00:21:21,480 --> 00:21:22,980 So they just kept on moving. 187 00:21:24,720 --> 00:21:25,720 Hiding in the banks. 188 00:21:26,780 --> 00:21:27,780 Scramming. 189 00:21:30,250 --> 00:21:32,630 All anybody knew was it was three black fellas. 190 00:21:34,830 --> 00:21:35,830 Smart as hell. 191 00:21:37,290 --> 00:21:38,830 Quiet as a pack of church mice. 192 00:21:42,950 --> 00:21:43,950 Legend. 193 00:22:12,790 --> 00:22:13,790 Smells like pussy. 194 00:22:14,030 --> 00:22:15,030 Mm-hmm. 195 00:22:17,790 --> 00:22:19,230 This is serious, man. 196 00:22:19,650 --> 00:22:20,810 What, you think I don't know that? 197 00:22:25,610 --> 00:22:30,310 I ain't gonna do jack shit. 198 00:22:31,650 --> 00:22:32,650 Dang. 199 00:22:35,230 --> 00:22:36,490 How much you think we get? 200 00:22:37,490 --> 00:22:38,490 Enough. 201 00:22:59,560 --> 00:23:00,940 What? What do you think? 202 00:23:02,720 --> 00:23:03,740 You look funny. 203 00:23:05,200 --> 00:23:06,200 Yeah? 204 00:23:07,900 --> 00:23:10,060 A huckleberry here is going to save your ass. 205 00:23:10,760 --> 00:23:12,140 Shit, nothing. 206 00:23:13,280 --> 00:23:15,560 I'm tired of busting my ass to buy a six-pack. 207 00:23:18,890 --> 00:23:19,890 I'd rather change that shit. 208 00:23:25,270 --> 00:23:30,210 I'd be mad about it. 209 00:23:32,610 --> 00:23:33,950 I'd buff it out a little bit. 210 00:23:37,270 --> 00:23:38,270 Especially you. 211 00:23:39,770 --> 00:23:42,730 That shit you write. 212 00:23:44,150 --> 00:23:45,150 Yeah, that's right. 213 00:23:45,930 --> 00:23:47,110 I think what you do. 214 00:23:48,400 --> 00:23:49,440 You want to tell me? 215 00:23:50,400 --> 00:23:51,900 You know, skin off my ass. 216 00:23:57,500 --> 00:24:00,720 The folks look at me, they look at my pops. 217 00:24:02,200 --> 00:24:04,140 They figure that's all they're ever gonna get. 218 00:24:05,380 --> 00:24:06,700 It's a punk-ass brawler. 219 00:24:10,240 --> 00:24:12,080 But you... 220 00:24:33,230 --> 00:24:34,230 Step it up, Jeff. 221 00:24:46,750 --> 00:24:53,370 We weren't gonna hurt anyone. 222 00:24:54,470 --> 00:24:55,850 Gun wasn't even loaded. 223 00:24:57,510 --> 00:24:58,850 Courage was his weapon. 224 00:25:54,350 --> 00:25:55,350 Just get in there and do it. 225 00:25:56,090 --> 00:25:58,010 Two minutes from now, we'll be on our way. 226 00:27:38,960 --> 00:27:43,800 If anybody asks the names of any Roy. 227 00:28:29,770 --> 00:28:30,770 is 228 00:29:45,900 --> 00:29:46,900 Thank you. 229 00:31:43,320 --> 00:31:44,740 That's your memory. 230 00:31:50,320 --> 00:31:51,320 And now. 231 00:31:56,900 --> 00:31:58,840 I know what it feels like to be depressed. 232 00:32:02,400 --> 00:32:05,560 But you have something he probably didn't have. 233 00:32:07,240 --> 00:32:08,240 What's that? 234 00:32:09,220 --> 00:32:10,220 Your imagination. 235 00:32:24,300 --> 00:32:26,820 In response to this memory, a story came to me. 236 00:32:27,840 --> 00:32:30,880 Of a quiet man, with unseen strength. 237 00:32:32,260 --> 00:32:34,500 His horn, his voice. 238 00:32:36,200 --> 00:32:37,960 Like the song that came from me. 239 00:32:40,260 --> 00:32:41,340 Seeking a home. 240 00:32:42,360 --> 00:32:43,920 A place in this world. 241 00:32:51,780 --> 00:32:53,100 Holy shit! 242 00:32:54,340 --> 00:32:57,640 Dude, there's like a thousand bucks back here. See, what I told you. 243 00:32:58,380 --> 00:33:00,420 They eat such dumb ass after all. 244 00:33:01,000 --> 00:33:04,160 I was messed up when that guy pulled that gun. 245 00:33:04,460 --> 00:33:05,680 That freaked me out. 246 00:33:10,720 --> 00:33:12,160 You saw it happen, didn't you? 247 00:33:15,580 --> 00:33:17,100 But man, you better speak up. 248 00:33:17,580 --> 00:33:18,660 That could have been bad. 249 00:33:29,610 --> 00:33:36,550 My father once did go away to return. 250 00:33:37,850 --> 00:33:40,830 Good. He's here. 251 00:33:50,830 --> 00:33:52,310 What's this? 252 00:33:53,310 --> 00:33:55,590 Don't fucking ranger. 253 00:34:07,440 --> 00:34:08,279 I think it's pissed. 254 00:34:08,280 --> 00:34:09,320 Ross, fire! 255 00:34:10,159 --> 00:34:11,159 Rossi! 256 00:34:14,540 --> 00:34:15,639 Is he alive? 257 00:34:16,840 --> 00:34:17,840 One, 258 00:34:18,620 --> 00:34:19,739 two, three. 259 00:34:21,659 --> 00:34:24,440 I got it. What up, buddy? 260 00:34:26,120 --> 00:34:28,800 Yeah, I can take a shower, you stink ass. 261 00:34:39,949 --> 00:34:40,949 How the hell you been? 262 00:34:41,250 --> 00:34:42,250 Good. 263 00:34:42,870 --> 00:34:43,870 I'm good. 264 00:34:44,389 --> 00:34:45,389 Yeah. 265 00:34:47,170 --> 00:34:48,170 You packing? 266 00:34:50,250 --> 00:34:54,130 Man, that better not be the only reason you come to see me. 267 00:34:55,350 --> 00:34:59,290 Of course it ain't. I love me some Russell. 268 00:35:01,050 --> 00:35:02,050 Yeah, right. 269 00:35:03,870 --> 00:35:04,870 What you got? 270 00:35:11,980 --> 00:35:12,980 You'll like this. 271 00:35:13,960 --> 00:35:14,960 This stuff? 272 00:35:16,720 --> 00:35:18,260 Put the two asses in the bath. 273 00:35:19,580 --> 00:35:20,980 Get your feet off the couch. 274 00:35:22,560 --> 00:35:23,640 Hell yeah. 275 00:35:24,060 --> 00:35:25,420 Put this up in the ounce. 276 00:35:25,920 --> 00:35:27,260 I'm gonna put your boy here. 277 00:35:27,760 --> 00:35:28,780 He's such a badass. 278 00:35:29,340 --> 00:35:31,220 Usually there's a ceiling on this shit. 279 00:35:32,440 --> 00:35:33,560 Out to that shit, too. 280 00:35:36,240 --> 00:35:37,520 Sure you got this kind of dough? 281 00:35:37,760 --> 00:35:38,760 Yeah. 282 00:35:39,340 --> 00:35:40,340 I've been working. 283 00:35:42,799 --> 00:35:44,260 Hey, go hang out with that chick. 284 00:35:45,880 --> 00:35:46,880 What's her name? 285 00:35:47,360 --> 00:35:49,060 Lydia. Yeah, that's it. 286 00:35:49,380 --> 00:35:50,460 You all still talk? 287 00:35:51,280 --> 00:35:52,560 No, it's been a while. 288 00:35:52,940 --> 00:35:53,940 Smart move, man. 289 00:35:54,440 --> 00:35:55,440 That chick? 290 00:35:56,740 --> 00:35:58,280 She got Elton Titus and shit. 291 00:35:59,260 --> 00:36:00,260 That's what I'm saying. 292 00:36:00,540 --> 00:36:01,560 Yeah, me and dad bad. 293 00:36:01,880 --> 00:36:04,380 Her belly button's so big you could eat oatmeal out of it. 294 00:36:05,280 --> 00:36:06,740 And get your feet off my couch. 295 00:36:07,020 --> 00:36:10,100 Do I have to tell you twice? You want me to write it down for you? What about 296 00:36:10,100 --> 00:36:11,280 streams? You want some of those too? 297 00:36:11,980 --> 00:36:13,260 Somebody get the telephone, please. 298 00:36:23,440 --> 00:36:24,440 Hey! 299 00:36:25,400 --> 00:36:26,960 You the brains behind this operation? 300 00:36:29,340 --> 00:36:30,340 Not hardly. 301 00:36:31,520 --> 00:36:32,780 You don't talk much. 302 00:36:33,420 --> 00:36:36,020 But, uh, who else would you rather ride with? 303 00:36:38,360 --> 00:36:39,360 Hey! 304 00:36:39,900 --> 00:36:40,900 Watch your neck. 305 00:36:41,580 --> 00:36:42,580 All right, brother. 306 00:36:43,480 --> 00:36:44,480 See you soon. 307 00:36:46,800 --> 00:36:47,800 Send it later. 308 00:36:54,640 --> 00:36:55,640 Woo! 309 00:36:58,600 --> 00:36:59,600 Man, 310 00:37:01,160 --> 00:37:02,840 that's cool as hell. 311 00:37:03,380 --> 00:37:04,760 Once a lot of sun, you saw him. 312 00:37:05,320 --> 00:37:06,380 Kind of laying low. 313 00:37:07,140 --> 00:37:08,140 How come? 314 00:37:10,160 --> 00:37:11,400 It was about a year ago. 315 00:37:12,100 --> 00:37:14,760 Rusty convinced me to go see some pic to his feet. 316 00:37:15,440 --> 00:37:17,640 Now, he was drunk as hell when he picked me up. 317 00:37:18,280 --> 00:37:21,220 Three hours later, we was both back. 318 00:37:21,840 --> 00:37:22,840 Hey! 319 00:37:23,180 --> 00:37:26,860 Howdy. Hey, do you know where It'll Do is? 320 00:37:28,100 --> 00:37:29,100 Excuse me? 321 00:37:30,140 --> 00:37:31,078 It'll Do. 322 00:37:31,080 --> 00:37:32,720 It's my girl's place. 323 00:37:33,460 --> 00:37:37,680 Ben, I have no idea what you're talking about, but I suggest... You move on. Oh, 324 00:37:37,700 --> 00:37:38,700 I forget people. 325 00:37:38,780 --> 00:37:39,780 Oh, great. 326 00:37:40,160 --> 00:37:41,160 Night for nothing. 327 00:37:43,280 --> 00:37:45,060 You gonna let her talk to you like that? 328 00:37:45,380 --> 00:37:46,380 You know what? 329 00:37:46,860 --> 00:37:47,860 No. 330 00:37:54,280 --> 00:37:55,280 Hey. 331 00:37:57,120 --> 00:37:58,140 I brought faith. 332 00:38:00,900 --> 00:38:02,180 I know you know the place. 333 00:38:02,940 --> 00:38:04,220 What place is that? 334 00:38:05,800 --> 00:38:07,860 My girl's house, you bitch. 335 00:38:14,780 --> 00:38:17,280 Hey, where's the ass? 336 00:38:24,120 --> 00:38:25,120 Watch it. 337 00:38:25,340 --> 00:38:27,580 Rusty brought a sheet of ass to share with the girls. 338 00:38:27,860 --> 00:38:29,940 Now, he didn't know what to do with it. 339 00:38:30,240 --> 00:38:33,120 So he did what any clear-thinking drunk would do. 340 00:38:33,640 --> 00:38:34,820 Shoved him up his ass. 341 00:38:49,819 --> 00:38:54,480 They never found the hit so they just left him alone to sleep it off 342 00:38:54,480 --> 00:38:58,160 But he wasn't doing much sleeping 343 00:39:36,520 --> 00:39:37,520 What you writing? 344 00:39:41,180 --> 00:39:44,120 Nothing. What you writing over here? What is this? 345 00:39:44,480 --> 00:39:45,800 You gonna let me grab it like that? 346 00:39:46,260 --> 00:39:47,260 Huh? 347 00:39:47,760 --> 00:39:49,500 Come on. 348 00:39:49,780 --> 00:39:50,780 I don't know. 349 00:39:53,220 --> 00:39:54,220 Jeff. 350 00:39:55,880 --> 00:39:56,880 Stop. 351 00:40:05,960 --> 00:40:06,960 That's fascinating. 352 00:40:58,440 --> 00:41:00,460 Yeah, maybe she lets you send her like, do Kate, huh? 353 00:41:01,740 --> 00:41:03,780 You got me in misery. 354 00:42:17,550 --> 00:42:19,090 A waste in time. 355 00:42:59,830 --> 00:43:02,790 How's it going? 356 00:43:03,970 --> 00:43:10,190 What? Nothing I'm Alan 357 00:43:10,190 --> 00:43:14,350 What? The name's Alan 358 00:43:20,810 --> 00:43:22,130 Nothing much, Alan. 359 00:43:24,190 --> 00:43:25,190 And Rebecca. 360 00:43:27,390 --> 00:43:28,430 I mean, sure. 361 00:43:51,660 --> 00:43:57,320 My place of peace was always the water, where the loud buzz of fear and doubt 362 00:43:57,320 --> 00:44:03,820 washed away, and all that remained was me, pure as a simple story. 363 00:44:14,100 --> 00:44:19,720 His horn was a gift, beats of grace that sprung forth like a fountain. 364 00:44:22,580 --> 00:44:29,420 soaring over a saltwater creek, made closer to the ocean with each stride. 365 00:44:36,180 --> 00:44:41,140 But when the last note drifted down and then away, he was left with the same dry 366 00:44:41,140 --> 00:44:48,100 sorrow, where fear lurked, and touch was cold as 367 00:44:48,100 --> 00:44:49,100 midnight. 368 00:44:53,100 --> 00:44:58,780 In those small hours, he'd look up into a black sea, dotted with stars like 369 00:44:58,780 --> 00:45:03,980 lanterns on a foggy shore, lit for the lost fisherman. 370 00:45:33,360 --> 00:45:34,680 Are you kidding me? 371 00:45:35,020 --> 00:45:36,020 Whoa. 372 00:45:36,900 --> 00:45:37,940 What, punk? 373 00:45:39,320 --> 00:45:41,780 Sorry. Hey, damn straight, you're sorry. I had to beat your ass. 374 00:45:44,720 --> 00:45:45,720 Little faggot. 375 00:46:02,190 --> 00:46:06,510 Send me a seat on the carousel. 376 00:46:06,910 --> 00:46:11,750 Play me an old song that we loved so well. 377 00:46:12,430 --> 00:46:17,330 We'll keep on riding around and around. 378 00:46:17,650 --> 00:46:21,050 Every night life's up and down. 379 00:46:25,830 --> 00:46:27,770 Oh, love, the change. 380 00:46:28,970 --> 00:46:30,490 Life's up and down. 381 00:46:31,660 --> 00:46:33,520 Damned if we don't. 382 00:46:34,060 --> 00:46:35,700 Damned if we do. 383 00:46:36,300 --> 00:46:38,640 But I remain whole. 384 00:46:39,000 --> 00:46:41,240 Each night I pray. 385 00:46:41,820 --> 00:46:45,320 Good Lord, we'll find a way. 386 00:46:47,740 --> 00:46:48,740 Look at ya. 387 00:46:49,220 --> 00:46:51,160 Couple of sorry sons of bitches. 388 00:46:54,180 --> 00:46:56,060 You killed my face. 389 00:46:57,680 --> 00:46:58,680 Let's go. 390 00:47:01,520 --> 00:47:02,520 Where are we going? 391 00:47:02,880 --> 00:47:03,880 It's gonna rain. 392 00:47:06,800 --> 00:47:07,820 It's gonna rain. 393 00:47:09,540 --> 00:47:11,080 Fucking weatherman over there. 394 00:47:19,420 --> 00:47:21,840 Keeping dry? 395 00:47:22,580 --> 00:47:24,020 Got whistlers, sure as hell is. 396 00:47:26,160 --> 00:47:27,160 Let me get you off. 397 00:47:29,780 --> 00:47:30,860 Three shots of bourbon. 398 00:47:37,740 --> 00:47:38,840 Y'all get yourself one too. 399 00:47:42,660 --> 00:47:43,660 I can do that. 400 00:47:55,020 --> 00:47:56,020 The bar keys. 401 00:48:06,730 --> 00:48:07,730 Y'all set? 402 00:48:07,770 --> 00:48:08,770 I think so. 403 00:48:09,570 --> 00:48:10,570 Keep them coming. 404 00:48:41,890 --> 00:48:46,530 We'll be right back. 405 00:49:16,780 --> 00:49:17,678 How you doing? 406 00:49:17,680 --> 00:49:18,680 How you doing? 407 00:49:19,460 --> 00:49:20,460 Uh-uh. 408 00:49:20,660 --> 00:49:24,160 We, uh... We gotta finish this whiskey. 409 00:49:28,420 --> 00:49:30,400 I... I can't drink that. 410 00:49:31,180 --> 00:49:32,180 Yeah, you can't. 411 00:49:34,640 --> 00:49:35,960 I don't want it. 412 00:49:38,180 --> 00:49:39,800 Uh, Joseph could be in a pussy. 413 00:49:56,650 --> 00:49:57,650 But I'm the asshole. 414 00:49:59,230 --> 00:50:00,230 That's rich. 415 00:50:00,670 --> 00:50:02,610 You're a strange little bitch who never talks to nobody. 416 00:50:03,130 --> 00:50:06,210 I've never seen you with a chick. I've never seen you with anybody. 417 00:50:08,470 --> 00:50:11,170 You're just lucky Howard and I'd let you hang out with us. Fuck you! 418 00:50:19,330 --> 00:50:20,330 You done? 419 00:50:38,640 --> 00:50:40,260 Is that so bad, huh? 420 00:52:48,330 --> 00:52:49,330 Where'd you come from? 421 00:52:50,850 --> 00:52:52,290 Same place you going. 422 00:53:22,380 --> 00:53:23,480 This is all a gift. 423 00:53:25,480 --> 00:53:27,020 A guide to your truth. 424 00:53:29,100 --> 00:53:31,300 As real as this here sand and sea. 425 00:53:33,840 --> 00:53:34,840 What is it? 426 00:53:38,180 --> 00:53:39,180 My story. 427 00:53:40,340 --> 00:53:41,460 The one you see. 428 00:56:22,350 --> 00:56:23,350 Hey, man. 429 00:56:24,690 --> 00:56:25,690 You all right? 430 00:56:27,050 --> 00:56:28,050 Yeah. 431 00:56:29,170 --> 00:56:30,170 I'm fine. 432 00:56:32,850 --> 00:56:33,850 Where's Jay? 433 00:56:36,290 --> 00:56:38,530 No idea. 434 00:56:44,250 --> 00:56:45,390 But, man, you want to get out of here? 435 00:56:48,010 --> 00:56:49,030 We need some women. 436 00:56:49,680 --> 00:56:51,580 Good luck. You look like shit. 437 00:56:54,600 --> 00:56:57,180 I still get more ass than that dress. 438 00:57:00,120 --> 00:57:01,920 Yeah. Right. 439 00:57:34,100 --> 00:57:39,220 Hey Hey How's 440 00:57:39,220 --> 00:57:43,140 it going? 441 00:57:43,820 --> 00:57:48,460 Good How are you? 442 00:57:53,420 --> 00:57:54,820 Fine 443 00:58:15,240 --> 00:58:16,240 Stay clear. 444 00:58:16,780 --> 00:58:18,660 She swooned from the moon. 445 00:58:22,280 --> 00:58:23,820 I'll always be here. 446 00:58:29,300 --> 00:58:31,920 What was that? 447 00:58:36,840 --> 00:58:38,260 Just on my rope. 448 00:58:45,540 --> 00:58:46,760 Land from the moon. 449 00:59:01,320 --> 00:59:02,320 15. 450 00:59:38,920 --> 00:59:39,920 There she is. 451 00:59:40,700 --> 00:59:41,700 Oh, shit. 452 00:59:42,940 --> 00:59:43,940 She's so cute. 453 00:59:47,280 --> 00:59:48,280 It's too dark. 454 00:59:49,780 --> 00:59:50,780 Huh? 455 00:59:53,940 --> 00:59:54,940 Hey. 456 00:59:55,460 --> 00:59:56,460 Hey. 457 00:59:56,820 --> 00:59:57,820 Where you been? 458 00:59:58,680 --> 00:59:59,680 Just hanging. 459 01:00:00,240 --> 01:00:01,520 You want to go with us? 460 01:00:02,300 --> 01:00:03,300 Where? 461 01:00:04,280 --> 01:00:05,440 We'll figure it out. 462 01:00:08,899 --> 01:00:09,899 What's up, Chief? 463 01:00:10,180 --> 01:00:11,180 Why don't you tell me? 464 01:00:13,160 --> 01:00:14,160 You coming? 465 01:00:14,820 --> 01:00:15,940 Oh, well, where are you going? 466 01:00:16,660 --> 01:00:17,860 That's really none of your business. 467 01:00:18,120 --> 01:00:19,580 I'm about to make it some of my business. 468 01:00:20,280 --> 01:00:23,000 That's a good one. You picked it up at play school? 469 01:00:23,740 --> 01:00:24,740 No. 470 01:00:24,760 --> 01:00:26,220 No, we got a place for you here. 471 01:00:26,700 --> 01:00:28,320 Why don't you get your ass back home? 472 01:00:29,040 --> 01:00:32,000 Why don't you walk your ass back to me, little cronies, before you find yourself 473 01:00:32,000 --> 01:00:34,460 in a situation you can't handle? Is that right? Yeah, that's right. 474 01:00:35,660 --> 01:00:37,280 Keep pushing. I'm going to lay your ass out. 475 01:00:51,400 --> 01:00:52,400 You coming? 476 01:01:00,040 --> 01:01:06,020 A deep silence overtook the plain, filling his heart with comfort. 477 01:01:08,900 --> 01:01:14,800 He was home, protected by the great oaks that lorded over him, 478 01:01:15,240 --> 01:01:18,360 entrusted with a flock to pasture. 479 01:01:20,200 --> 01:01:25,820 Planters and craftsmen trekking to hear him speak and sing each sunlit Sunday 480 01:01:25,820 --> 01:01:26,820 morning. 481 01:01:28,860 --> 01:01:31,460 But darker waters lay yet another test. 482 01:01:33,420 --> 01:01:38,700 The youngest son of a humble maid caught in the purse line of his daddy's shrimp 483 01:01:38,700 --> 01:01:39,700 boat. 484 01:01:42,320 --> 01:01:44,360 What world would allow such pain? 485 01:01:46,300 --> 01:01:47,300 Let's go. 486 01:01:47,980 --> 01:01:48,980 Okay. 487 01:01:56,720 --> 01:01:58,780 Hey bitches, wait up! 488 01:02:07,800 --> 01:02:10,420 What dark heart of God lay shadow to the door? 489 01:02:11,880 --> 01:02:14,520 I think we all probably feel the same thing. 490 01:02:18,520 --> 01:02:24,400 And there's never going to be any comfort 491 01:02:29,230 --> 01:02:36,050 a love out there from God or nowhere else to 492 01:02:36,050 --> 01:02:37,050 lighten the load. 493 01:02:43,770 --> 01:02:50,610 When we stop and be 494 01:02:50,610 --> 01:02:56,290 still, we know that ain't quite right. 495 01:03:05,640 --> 01:03:11,340 This is born from some strange 496 01:03:11,340 --> 01:03:14,680 deep-seated love. 497 01:03:17,060 --> 01:03:23,080 Some gentle hand that knows and 498 01:03:23,080 --> 01:03:26,460 wants what's best for us. 499 01:03:30,670 --> 01:03:37,490 When fear and doubt comes down, we shouldn't be running 500 01:03:37,490 --> 01:03:38,490 from it. 501 01:03:40,790 --> 01:03:46,250 We shouldn't count to that raging beat we call the devil. 502 01:03:46,950 --> 01:03:53,590 We should be beating it back, destroying it with the one weapon we 503 01:03:53,590 --> 01:03:54,590 have. 504 01:04:21,360 --> 01:04:25,000 to do better in the wake of all that's not. 505 01:04:28,300 --> 01:04:35,040 Will and weakness and joy and pain 506 01:04:35,040 --> 01:04:41,960 carry one grace to dry mouth 507 01:04:41,960 --> 01:04:47,340 and parched lip like water in the desert. 508 01:05:06,510 --> 01:05:07,510 Be free. 509 01:07:08,590 --> 01:07:09,730 The road is long. 510 01:07:11,150 --> 01:07:12,370 With a lot of bends. 511 01:07:13,710 --> 01:07:15,890 Mapped in a way we're not meant to see. 512 01:07:17,290 --> 01:07:19,250 Shifts that change everything we know. 513 01:07:21,710 --> 01:07:23,130 I could be strong. 514 01:07:23,810 --> 01:07:25,090 I wasn't useless. 515 01:07:26,650 --> 01:07:30,270 It was better when I wasn't alone. 516 01:07:33,490 --> 01:07:34,490 Joseph. 517 01:07:35,710 --> 01:07:36,710 Joseph. 518 01:07:47,660 --> 01:07:53,920 Joseph. Where are we? 519 01:07:57,460 --> 01:07:58,800 Joseph's staying at his brother's. 520 01:08:49,100 --> 01:08:50,100 You be good. 521 01:08:52,939 --> 01:08:53,939 I will. 522 01:09:17,300 --> 01:09:18,460 I'll see you later, brother. 523 01:10:15,560 --> 01:10:16,560 Where did you sneak in? 524 01:10:20,220 --> 01:10:21,440 Just a little while ago. 525 01:10:22,940 --> 01:10:23,940 Hope that's okay. 526 01:10:24,340 --> 01:10:25,340 Oh, of course. 527 01:10:26,320 --> 01:10:27,320 Everything all right? 528 01:10:54,060 --> 01:10:55,060 I'm afraid something. 529 01:11:10,000 --> 01:11:10,520 I 530 01:11:10,520 --> 01:11:20,220 released 531 01:11:20,220 --> 01:11:21,220 it. 532 01:11:22,080 --> 01:11:23,260 For the first time. 533 01:11:26,160 --> 01:11:31,220 My own meager song of my own simple journey. 534 01:11:33,500 --> 01:11:35,040 A march to courage. 535 01:11:37,640 --> 01:11:39,100 Warriors at my side. 536 01:11:44,220 --> 01:11:47,440 Howard started working on one of the horse farms on John's Island. 537 01:11:48,760 --> 01:11:50,340 He met a sweet girl there. 538 01:11:50,960 --> 01:11:52,640 A free spirit who liked him. 539 01:11:54,920 --> 01:11:59,380 They settled together at her family's old house on the river, where she paints 540 01:11:59,380 --> 01:12:02,280 old bottles and scraps of driftwood and sells them at a local gallery. 541 01:12:05,740 --> 01:12:10,760 Most nights they smoke a J before dinner, and after a few beers, skinny 542 01:12:10,760 --> 01:12:12,880 dip off the river shore. 543 01:12:18,580 --> 01:12:21,980 Alan became a rigger on one of the cargo ships we used to watch float by. 544 01:12:24,590 --> 01:12:29,070 About eight months ago, he dove from the deck 50 feet up to save a fallen sailor, 545 01:12:29,090 --> 01:12:33,910 then held tight the unconscious body while the waves beat them both. 546 01:12:35,530 --> 01:12:36,530 The man lived. 547 01:12:37,810 --> 01:12:39,270 Alan was made third mate. 548 01:12:41,090 --> 01:12:44,690 He bought a small cabin on one of the marsh rivers that used to bind us, 549 01:12:45,070 --> 01:12:51,310 returning there every time they hit port, floating with the rise and fall of 550 01:12:51,310 --> 01:12:52,310 tidal creeks. 551 01:12:59,880 --> 01:13:02,480 I imagine he might watch me with pride from that perch. 552 01:13:04,200 --> 01:13:07,580 Because gone are the days of the sort of fear that cut me at the knees. 553 01:13:09,180 --> 01:13:14,340 It began with that bold kiss under a comfort moon from the first person I 554 01:13:14,340 --> 01:13:15,340 shared my writing with. 555 01:13:16,540 --> 01:13:20,240 And despite all my doubt, those words didn't strike me down. 556 01:13:21,520 --> 01:13:23,840 They would return to me, tenfold. 557 01:13:26,040 --> 01:13:29,000 With moments of connection that brought back that warmth. 558 01:13:31,690 --> 01:13:33,170 That born-again feeling. 559 01:13:34,810 --> 01:13:36,330 The sun on my face. 560 01:13:50,630 --> 01:13:51,630 It's rough. 561 01:13:52,010 --> 01:13:53,050 Need some work. 562 01:13:57,670 --> 01:13:58,670 What do you think? 563 01:14:03,630 --> 01:14:04,630 It's who I am. 564 01:14:07,410 --> 01:14:08,890 Spirit, did that change me? 565 01:14:10,270 --> 01:14:12,810 Well, you'll have plenty of those. 566 01:14:16,250 --> 01:14:17,650 Those are, uh... 567 01:14:33,000 --> 01:14:34,420 Wow, man, he's great. Hey, Joseph. 568 01:14:35,040 --> 01:14:36,040 Hey, wait up. 569 01:14:36,920 --> 01:14:39,440 Hey, was, uh, was all that real? 570 01:14:40,900 --> 01:14:41,900 Real to me. 571 01:14:44,400 --> 01:14:45,400 That's a good answer. 572 01:14:47,400 --> 01:14:48,420 Hey, let's go grab a beer. 573 01:14:49,360 --> 01:14:50,360 Can't. 574 01:14:50,940 --> 01:14:51,940 Gotta meet tomorrow. 575 01:18:21,680 --> 01:18:23,220 We'll be right back. 576 01:18:56,980 --> 01:18:59,760 We ain't lost on the promised land. 577 01:19:00,460 --> 01:19:02,320 On the promised land. 578 01:19:02,720 --> 01:19:04,740 What you got to say, Edwin and Darius? 579 01:20:16,360 --> 01:20:17,980 happening. We're